I miss you but I know I got to let you go for now.
I want a woman to spend the rest of my life. I know its bad that I am looking to a female to make me feel better. God help me. I’m young and immature.
Man I plan on being a silent and humble person for this new year. I will only speak when I have to. People talk too much. Just listen.
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It’s crazy how the phone rings and its the person you’ve been wanting to call you this whole time and you smile so big that the sides of your lips almost touch the bottom of your ears. You pick up the phone with a serious voice because you don’t want her to realize how happy and jumpy you are. Smile turns straight and your face turns to confusion because it was call that was accident. You hear people in the background and don’t know what to do. Excitement becomes anger. Love turning to Hate. Your so mad, saying things you don’t really mean. Words comming out your mouth that might push her away so now I have to Becareful with the things I’m about to say. But how can someone try to watch their mouth when their heart is speaking louder than it. COME BACK is what it is saying. I need you here for comfort. I feel like nothing without you. Weren’t we suppose to live this life together! I wanted you here forever! Don’t go is what I am trying to say. My mouth speaks something different but now that everything is calm I am telling you to stay and never leave again please. By you leaving there will only be a part time of happiness and i am desiring something full time. I need you. Wish I can you actually tell you this. Just teach me how to make you happy, teach me how to become a better man, teach me how stop being so foolish. You and I apart was never ment to be. So if love is patience then I shall wait even if it takes an eternity. Even if I die I was still be waiting in the sky looking down at you waiting for you to look and come right back to me. Daniella I love you. Man I can’t even call you beautiful anymore because then I will be lying. Your appearance is not something someone can describe. Your personality is beyond anything someone else has ever came across. The way you respect and handle yourself, I have never seen any where in my life. Your a smart girl. Why are you lost Daniella? This is not the girl I loved or wanted to be with nor pictured seeing in the future. Get back on your feet and kick all these things you know you will never do out there and keep it locked. Please I want my lady back more than anything. I’m I’m love with you and I know for a fact I will never move on because my mind will stop be on you even if there was another girl in the picture. Ahh man loving you and talking about you brings the best out of me. Venting on this is all I can do for now. Your wall is too tall and wide for me to reach you but I’ll still be waiting right infront of it day by day for you to come out and jump right back into my arms. I know God has called me to be the man for you. Now all I have to do this time is obey when things are asked to be done.
they say I’m too young to know what love is but is it possible I could be feeling what a 40 yr old married couple could be feeling?
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When will these restless nights leave and get off the very sheets I sleep in/ zoning on each popcorn on the sealing and thinking how did I lose the woman I loved. What have I done now to deserve the pounds of weight I lose everyday because my stomach is too weak to eat. I feel bullets going across my body. Pain. Stabbing, slicing, ripping, and tearing wide open. Hardly walking, the agony a young man go through. Letting him be depressed with Noone to talk to except the video console that he plays on for about 12 hours a day so he can keep his mind off of things. Not realizing the joy life can bring. But something shouts out ” I LOVE YOU” even though I didn’t want this ” I Love You” now how could I ever forget about you. Everytime distance gets in between us I am not complete. I feel like something is missing. Come back! I need you here with me! I need the love and compassion from the lady I love. Not from nobody else but you Daniella. I miss calling you baby and babe and cute names like noko. I wish you were never moving and I wish I can show you this without you hurting my feelings in the long run. So I write this like this so Noone can ever see it.
